Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Wishing Only Wounds The Heart

I'm Not That Girl
Wicked the Musical

Hands touch, eyes meet
Sudden silence, sudden heat
Hearts leap in a giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I'm not that girl:

Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl

Ev'ry so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-been
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in

Blithe smile, lithe limbs
She who's winsome, she wins him
Gold hair with a gentle curl
That's the girl he chose
And Heaven knows
I'm not that girl:

Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born for the rose and the pearl
There's a girl I know
He loves her so
I'm not that girl


It's a song that's been on my playlist since third year High School, but I never really appreciated it until now. I love how the play Wicked has awesome songs (For Good, Defying Gravity. . ) and one of my biggest dreams in life is to watch this in Broadway!

Anyway. . .

I was going to write a blog entry about you again but then I decided against it. I'm done feeding your ego. Everything I feel or anything I have to say about you, it's all written and hidden in my diary. Like I said, I don't want to feed your ego anymore. I don't want you to have that power over me. Ayoko na ng issue. I know if I post it here, I'm just gonna look stupid at mapapahiya lang ako. Plus I don't want this blog to be full of bad vibes. I have this 'sad blog' and I guess all my negativity and anger will be heading here instead.

You.

I like you for who you are. I like the person that you are, the person you could be. Thank you for being a friend!

Love,
Jess


I'm not okay. I mean, siguro naman halata yun. Even my dad noticed and he told my lola who asked me about it. It's not just about him, it's about a lot of things. Feeling ko nagsabay sabay lahat at nagpatong patong. I don't want to open up to anyone anymore. Parang feeling ko, talking about it would just make me breakdown. I reach out to people in different ways, good morning texts, chats, tweets, and so a big thank you to everyone who bothers to check up on me and see how I'm doing :)

Tuloy ang laban!

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