I wrote an open letter to you tonight. It's posted somewhere in cyberspace and if you can find it, then good for you! It's kind of a long entry and I know most of you guys can't be bothered to read it. Hehe.
God has a plan for me, and even though I've been hoping and praying that you are a part of it, I know His plan is the best for me.
Well.. this entry is called I Dare You To Move for many reasons. Mainly because 1.) I was listening to this song the whole day and 2.) I'm turning over a new leaf! Like what I have mentioned in my previous entry, I've been daring my self to take action and not to be a lazy bum anymore! So here it is. . a list of the things I want to accomplish this year/semester!
1. Clean/Fix my room and maintain it!
So far so good. My room has been tidy since I cleaned it. And my bathroom as well! Cleaned it hard out the other day. It's so prettttyyy! Plus, the study table in my room is actually doing it's purpose now! All my school stuff are there, and it's not a clothes hamper anymore! Even my closet is tidy and organized! Yaaaaay! Now all I have to do is fix my bed when I get up in the morning. . .
2. The aim is to pass. The goal is to excel!
Actually, it's GET STRAIGHT A's. Yes, I am that ambitious this semester! I've been out of school for too long and maybe it's because it's still the start, but I'm really keen to learn and excel! The aim is to pass everything, but the goal is to excel. The goal is to get A's. I'm in Uni/College now and I'm the one who chose all my subjects (No more MATHS! Hallelujah!!!!!) so I have no excuse anymore. I have to love what I'm doing because no one forced me to take those papers (except for the two compulsory ones. but I actually like them so that's not the point!) and it was in my own free will that I committed myself to those classes.
I know I can be a straight A student if I put my mind to it. I am confident with my writing skills and I absolutely love what I'm doing. I honestly love my school! I love the vibe! The energy. I feel as though everyone in my class is so brilliant and creative that I feel inspired to do my best as well! Also, I love the freedom of expression when it comes to clothes! I love how I get to wear what I want when I want.
I know it's going to be hard to achieve that straight A goal. It's not gonna be easy. There would be times where in I would want to give up. I'd get stressed and probably curse and cry. But I have a goal. And I know the feeling of achieving this goal is going to be so worth it in the end.
For now, I'm starting with baby steps. Like actually doing homeworks/researches/and readings. Listening to lectures and all that. Not falling asleep. Not texting. Haha. But yes, like I said, I am determined and I am asking for God's help :)
3. Get over my fear of public speaking!
Yes folks. I am in fact afraid of speaking in public. I just do not have that talent. I get nervous, stutter, and make a fool out of myself. I am not kidding. Memories of Senior year's debate haunts me every time. . .
I shall get over the fear slowly! First stop is my radio show! I, along with my friend Lichelle, host a Youth radio programme that airs twice a month. It's especially for Filipino Youths so I love how I can speak in Tagalog and play OPM as well.
Our first episode, I was a nervous wreck. I stuttered and I panicked. Encouraging texts from my friends got me through that hour. Hehe. It gets better with practice. Podcasts of our episodes can be downloaded online, I think? Just not sure about that.
Next thing I did to get over this was share at last Sunday's GPM for YFC. Suzanne asked me if I could share during lunch before her sharing and my instinct told me to say no. But for some reason I said yes. It was good. I like reaching out to people. I was a bit intimidated by the microphone and I moved around a lot, but hopefully I got my point across!
4. Learn how to drive.
I've said this a hundred times now, but I will get my learners soon! As I am now a jobless poor student, money is a bit scarce at the moment. I'll get it once I sort out my loan. I can't wait to actually drive!
5. Go back to theatre!
My first love will always be acting, I guess. Sadly, I don't think my school has a theatre org I can join. But I'm sure there are plenty of opportunities out there! I'd love to be in Wicked. Or West Side Story. Or Rent! Ooooh yes please.
I guess I should practice my singing already and just get my voice and myself ready. Theatre can be demanding but I love love love being on stage and being a completely different person! Plus, I can put my being a crybaby to good use! I can cry on cue even though I've never actually done it yet.
6. Fitness First!
Last year, the highlight of my day was going to the gym! My goal is not to be skinny and sexy and to lose weight (although that's a given) but rather, it's to get fit and be healthy and happy. I've been doing a lot of walking lately, but I want to do more.
I've also gone back to playing Volleyball! Really missed it hard out. Good to be on the court again receiving those spikes and whatnot. I need more training, though, but it feels so good to play again. It also helps that my teammates are so good and amazing! Volleyball nights cheer me up!
This entry is way too long now and if you're still reading at this point, then congratulations! I dare myself to actually make all these happen. Let's go Jessica!
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